Saturday, May 12, 2012

Two Free Chapters of "My Mind's Telling Me No"

Hi everyone! I already have the first two chapters of my erotic novel available on Worthyofpublishing.com but now I am going to give you a chance to read it here on my personal blog. So sit back, relax and enjoy.




Chapter One







“Damn woman, move your ass over!” My husband cried.
I‘d just rolled over in bed trying to embrace him when once again he turned me away. I‘m always vying for his attention, from the way I would dress in very revealing clothes, to the way I cooked his meals, always going out of my way to satisfy him, but it never does any good. I can never seem to figure out what makes this man tick.

I continued to lay there next to him with my eyes fixated on the wall. He felt so distant. This isn’t the way I pictured married life to be. When Darren and I first met it was love at first sight. I remember it like it was yesterday. We had met at a quaint little coffee shop. I was standing in line when I noticed this handsome man walk through the door.


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One day as I was leaving work I decided to stop and relax for a moment in one of the local coffee shops. The place always seemed really quiet and peaceful; just what I needed after such a long day.  As I made my way over to the line to make my order a very attractive man entered the shop. Every woman in the place paused for a moment, fixating their eyes on him. I had to admit he was very suave. I tried not to notice him, but it was extremely hard. I just couldn’t ignore such a well dressed, clean cut man.

He was wearing a tailor made Armani pin stripe suit. His skin was a smooth, creamy chocolate. I began to imagine what his body must look like out of business attire. Suddenly my erotic thoughts were interrupted when the cashier hollered out next in line.

“May I help you?”  The young female behind the counter asked.

“I would like to have a small cappuccino, with extra cream, please.” I said removing my wallet from my purse.

“Will that be all?”

“Yes. That’s all.”

“That will be three twenty five.” She replied as I reached into my wallet for a five dollar bill.

After paying the cashier, I politely stepped over to the side to let the next person in line make their order. To my delight, the next person was the alluring stranger. He walked right up beside me, looked in my direction and gave me a slight smile. He was so close that I could smell his delightful cologne emanating from his body. Finally, after what seemed to be an eternity the young lady returned with my drink. I graciously thanked her and proceeded to leave the coffee shop.

When I began to walk away the gentleman in the suit called out to me.

“Um… miss? Excuse me, you dropped this.” He said rushing to hand me my wallet.

“Wow, how clumsy of me.” I blushed.

“Don’t worry about it. I’m just glad I was here to help.” He stated with a huge grin.

 His smile was so warm and inviting. It made me feel comfortable. I decided to introduce myself properly.

“Where are my manners? My name is Trinity…Trinity Evans.” I said extending my hand.

“It’s nice to meet you Ms. Evans. I’m Darren Ware.” He replied firmly shaking my hand.

I stared into his eyes that I found to be a beautiful hazel with flecks of gold. They seemed to hypnotize me. His physique was like that of a Greek god, standing at a magnificent six foot four.

Immediately I thought to myself this man must have a wife, or at least a very satisfied girlfriend. What woman in their right mind would let a king like him get away? Something inside of me wanted to ask was he single, but how would it look for a woman to ask that type of question first. It would make me seem too needy. The last thing I wanted to do was come off as being desperate.

But I just couldn’t help wanting to know if some lucky woman had taken him off the market. So instead of using my better judgment, I went ahead and asked him anyway.

”Darren may I ask you a question?” I said taking a sip of my cappuccino that was now a tad bit lukewarm.

“Sure, you may ask me anything. Here, why don’t we have a seat?” He took hold of my hand and escorted me to a small booth.

“Darren…I may call you Darren right?”

“Go right ahead. I love the way my name sounds upon your lips.” He smiled gazing into my eyes.

“Darren, are you involved with anyone?”

“No, I’m single, and a little too involved with my work to settle down.” He replied.

My heart sank. I knew if he was too busy with his work that he would never have time for me.

“Now pretty lady….” he said leaning in closer to me. “If you don’t mine me asking you, what lucky man has your heart?”

It was very flattering to have a man assume I was taken, but the truth of the matter is I haven’t had a serious relationship in five years. The last one ended because my boyfriend just couldn’t keep his dick in his pants. Since then I’ve just been dating with no commitment.

“No Darren. I’m not spoken for.”

“That’s a shame. A woman as beautiful as you should have a man catering to your every need.” He said leaning in so close now his lips could almost touch mine.

“Darren what are you doing?”

“Please forgive me. I didn’t mean to offend you, it’s just your lips…. they seem so soft and kissable.”

My lips are kissable? Don’t get me wrong I’m a knockout, but he was beginning to sound like he was just feeding me lines.

“Look Darren, you seem to be a nice guy, but I don’t want to get caught up in something that has no future.”

“What do you mean future? Trinity listen I just want the opportunity to get to know you better. No strings attached.”

No strings attached? I hoped this man didn’t think that I was going to have sex with him without a commitment.

“Darren, I’m sorry. I don’t know what you have in mind, but I don’t have sleep with men I‘ve just met.” I said raising my voice slightly.

“Now who said anything about sex? I just wanted the chance to show you a good time.” He rose from his seat. I could clearly see that I had just insulted this man. I didn’t mean to but as a single woman you can’t be too careful.

“I apologize.” I said reaching out grabbing hold of his hand. “You see I have been in this type of situation before.”

“I understand.” He nodded as he sat back down in the booth. “If you give me half the chance I can show you how a woman should be treated.”

“But Darren, you made it clear that your work does not permit you to form any relationship.”

“Trinity, I know this may sound like a pick up line, but you look like the type of woman that I would risk losing my job for.”

Risk losing his job? Now I know this is insane. What kind of man doesn’t mind losing his job? Especially for some woman he just met in a coffee shop.

“Darren do you hear yourself? You sound crazy.”

“I know it sounds bizarre, but I think I’ve just fallen in love at first sight.” He gently grasped my hand and placed a tender kiss upon it.

“This is all going too fast for me. How can you be in love with me? You don’t even know me!”

“Ok. What do you do for a living?” Darren asked removing his suit coat to be more comfortable.

“Well, I have my very own profitable business selling lingerie I design.”

I was so proud of my little business. It was brand new, but I already had a lot of celebrity clientele.

“Really, that sounds intriguing. What is the name of your company?”

“Sensual Soul, do you like it?” I said hoping to get some positive feedback from him.

“Yes, I adore it. I bet you look scrumptious in your own designs.” He said licking his lips.

I know he had commented about my lips before, but his lips were the ones that looked so damn inviting and delicious right now. I just wanted to lean over and have a taste, but somehow I managed to fight my urges.

“Why thank you Darren. I’m going to have to invite you to one of my fashion shows.” I said gliding my finger across my lips.

“Trinity, are you flirting with me?” He whispered sultrily.

“Yes, I am. Is it turning you on?” I said trying to control myself from attacking this man.

“Of course, but I hope you know where all this teasing will lead?”

“And where is that?” I was dying to hear what nasty thoughts were filling his head.

“Into a life filled with love and happiness.” He replied grinning from ear to ear.

At first I thought this man was crazy, but the more and more he talked I began to sense he was for real.

“Trinity, would you like to have my number so you can maybe call me sometime? It is getting late, and I must be getting home to get some rest. I have a very hectic day ahead of me tomorrow.” He said standing to his feet and placing his suit coat back on.

“Sure, let me take out my cell.”

When I pulled it out and glanced the time, I discovered we had been conversing for well over and hour.

“Wow, where has the time gone?”

“There aren’t enough hours in a day to spend with a lovely woman like you.” Darren said kissing me on the cheek.

“Thank you.” I smiled. “Now may I have your number?”

“Why of course.” He took my cell phone in his hand and placed his number inside. “Please don’t hesitate to call my number day or night.” He said returning my phone and reaching for his brief case.

“I won’t. It was such a pleasure meeting you. We must do this again sometime.” I placed my purse over my shoulder.

“Oh, we will. But next time we won’t have to watch the time.”

“Goodbye Darren”.

“Goodbye Mrs. Trinity Ware.” He replied giving me a wink as he walked out the door.

Trinity Ware… did this man just call me Trinity Ware? Had he envisioned being married to me in his mind? No. No! That would be foolish. But I did like the sound of it. Mrs. Trinity Ware.







Chapter Two


After that spectacular encounter I was in a daze. My heart was racing and my palms were sweating. I had never wanted a perfect stranger before so badly. It was something about him that lured me in. I was now under his spell.

As I exited the coffee shop I realized that I had forgotten something very important, I too have a very busy agenda head of me. I have to prepare for my upcoming fashion show. The word on the street is that a lot of well known designers and celebrities are fighting hand over fist to get the chance to view my work. This show alone could be life or death to my career. I jumped in my gorgeous burgundy Chevy Durango and raced home to my beautiful townhouse.

I lived out in a very remote area of Miami, Florida. I moved here from Chicago when I started my business. It is nice and secluded, just the way I liked it. I was never the type of person to have a lot of company parading in and out of my house. I find that things are just better that way. When I pulled into my driveway the garage security light immediately flashed on.

Since I lived alone I liked to have my entire yard well lit in case there was someone hiding on my property, you may call it being paranoid but I call it being careful. I reached into my glove compartment and pressed the button on my garage door remote.

Once I was parked inside I climbed out of my car and began to reminisce about the day. I’d met a man, but not just any man either. I met a man that seemed to have a lot going for his self.

I entered my townhouse and flipped the light switch on in the kitchen. I was so delighted to be home. Before I went upstairs to my room to retire for the night, I went over to my phone to check my answering machine. The light was flashing so I knew someone had tried to contact me. I quickly pushed the button to listen to my messages.

There were four messages waiting. One was from some telemarketer trying to sell me a satellite dish. The next call came from my mother who was checking up on me. It felt so good to hear her voice. I hadn’t been back to Chicago to visit her in a while and I knew she missed her baby.

I was so wrapped up in my new business that I had begun neglecting her. The next call that came in was from my aunt Roberta scolding me about the fact that I hadn’t been to visit her either. I didn’t really care too much for my aunt Roberta though. She was like the gossip hound of the family. If someone made a mistake of any kind she was quick to instigate and drag your name through the mud.

Forgoing the last message I decided to go upstairs and climb into the tub to relax. When I walked into my bedroom I immediately flung my heels across the room. Those shoes were making my feet cry out for mercy. I then got undressed and placed my blouse and skirt in the hamper and headed to my master bath to turn on my water.

I began to take off my black lace bra and matching boy cut panties while I poured some raspberry scented oil into my tub. As the steam filled the room I began to daydream about Darren. I could still smell his cologne. When the tub was full I cut the water off and climbed inside. “Now this is nice.” I said aloud as I relaxed my body in the soothing water.

I laid there thinking that maybe this man entered my life for a reason and that he might be the man that I am going to marry? Just as I was in the middle of fantasizing about my future with Mr. Ware, the phone rang. I hated to get out of the tub, but I had no choice. I grudgingly made my way to answer it.

I was soaking wet and had forgotten to grab myself a towel when I got out of the bathtub, so now I was dripping water all over the place. Damn why didn’t I get one in the first place? I thought. I attempted to grab one from the linen closet before the person on the phone could hang up. I quickly snatched one out and ran to grab the phone in my room.

“Hello?” I said out of breath.

“Hello is this Trinity?” A very deep baritone voice asked.

“Yes this is Trinity. Who may I ask is calling?”

“Darren Ware. We met this afternoon at the coffee shop.”

“Darren hi, how are you." I tried not to sound so overjoyed, but I was ecstatic. I was so glad to hear his voice. But then it occurred to me that I never gave him my number. “Darren, how did you get my home phone number?” I asked beginning to fear that this gorgeous man was merely a stalker.

“Honey, your number is listed in the phone book.” He replied sounding very amused.

“No, it’s not listed…”  Then that’s when it hit me, he must have gotten it from my business listing.

“Trinity sweetheart your phone number is listed along with your advertisement for your company.”

I was so embarrassed. How could I forget that? My home phone number can be found along with my business number also.

“You must think I’m a scatterbrain, first I forget my wallet, now this.”

“Nonsense, how could I think that a woman as intelligent and beautiful as you could be a scatterbrain?” He replied.

“Darren, do you mind holding for a sec? I need to get dressed. You see you caught me when I was relaxing in the tub.”

“Oh… is that right?” His deep voice growled in my ear.

“Yes and I’m standing here with nothing on but a towel wrapped around my naked body.” I exclaimed knowing that the mere thought would drive him crazy.

“So… right now, you’re naked?”

“Yes, naked as the day I was born.” I giggled.

This whole scenario excited me. Here I was just daydreaming about him, and out of the blue he calls. What are the odds of that happening?

“Would you mind doing me a favor Trinity?”

“Sure Darren what is it?” I asked taking the phone over to my bed where I sat down on the edge.

“I know this may sound nasty but, would you mind playing a little game with me?”

A game, what sort of game? I thought. “I suppose, what did you have in mind?”

“I want you to remain naked for me and go stand in front of your mirror, so you can describe your body to me.” He said lowering his voice.

“Describe my body to you? I don’t know if I should.” I replied feeling a little uneasy.

“Trinity please, you’ve got me over here begging!” He chuckled.

“Oh alright, I don’t want you begging and pleading”

I stood up and slowly walked over to my floor length bedroom mirror.

“Are you there yet?” He began to sound impatient.

“Yes, I’m in front of my mirror now.” I replied staring at myself.

“Drop your towel for me.”

I released the towel and let it fall slowly to the floor. I felt a little unsure about what was taking place, but somehow I knew as long as it was for Darren it was right. I glanced at my damp naked flesh and took in every inch of myself. I did not want to come off as conceited, but I was exquisite. I stood there reveling in my caramel dewy skin.

“I’ve dropped the towel. Now what’s next Darren?”

“Tell me what you see.” He began moaning little by little.

“Um… I have very large breasts.” I replied with a little chuckle.

“No honey, not like that. Tell me in detail how your body looks.”

I took a deep breath and tried to release my inhibitions. I just hope he didn’t assume I did this sort of thing all the time with men.

“Well… my breasts are very perky. I also have very large nipples that are very erect right now.” I began slowly pinching them.

“Tell me how large they are? Are they as large as grapes?” Darren asked letting out a loud moan.

“Darren, what are you doing over there?”

“I’m just lying here with my eyes closed, picturing myself sucking on your sweet juicy hard nipples.”

“Is that right?”

“Yes that’s right. Now be a good girl and finish telling daddy about that sexy ass body of yours.” He said seductively.

“Yes daddy!” I squealed.

I decided that it was time to get completely uninhibited with this man, so I began to caress my breasts. The feel of my own hands touching my breasts excited me. I had never touched my body for a man over the phone before. I loved it! It gave me a sense of power. I knew that anything I said to this man now would drive him wild.

“I’m squeezing my breasts for you now. It feels so wonderful.”

“You are really turning me on Trinity. Can you do something else for me baby?”

“Yes daddy.”  Calling him daddy now seemed to flow from my lips so naturally.

“Baby I want you to go lay down in your bed and play with your pussy for me. Can you do that like a good little girl?” He asked moaning and groaning.

“O.k I’ll play your little game, daddy.”

I slowly walked over to my bed and climbed under my leopard silk sheets. The feel of the silk brushing against my naked body made me squeal with delight.

“It sounds like your having a good time over there. If I were with you it would be even better.” Darren commented as I continued to moan from the sensation of the sheets gliding across my skin.

“Darren I love how you make me feel like a woman and a little girl all at the same time. You make me feel like you’re in control.”

“Sexy I am in control. Tonight let me take you on a journey through my mind.”

As I laid there in my bed waiting for this man to tell me all kinds of sinfully nasty things, I began to let my fingers ever so gently stroke my pussy. It began to moisten with the slightest touch from my hand

“Darren?” I whispered taking a very deep breath.


“Yes baby. Are you o.k.? Tell daddy what’s wrong.”

“Nothings wrong. I just wanted to let you know that my pussy is dripping for you.”

“Oh… is it now? Maybe you need me to stop by and take care of that for you.”

That was a very tempting offer, but I couldn’t invite this man over for sex. I did have my reputation to uphold, but damn it has been a long time since I’ve had some good dick in my life.

“Darren, there is nothing else I would rather do right now than to have you come over here and ware this pussy out, but I can’t. We can’t.”

“Why not Trinity we are both adults. I promise I will not play with your emotions.” He whined.

“Darren I promised myself that the next time I had sex, it would be with the man I was going to spend the rest of my life with.” I said as my feelings of arousal died down.

“Trinity, come baby. Let me be that man you need.”

I could tell that he was only looking for a way to get in my pants. Maybe that is all he wanted in the first place.

“Darren is that why you stopped me in the coffee shop today, just to get me to fuck you?” I shouted sitting up in the middle of my bed.

“Fuck? You think I stopped you today just because I wanted some ass?” He bellowed.

“That’s the way it seems to me. You probably would have pulled the same thing with some other woman!”  I could feel my blood beginning to boil. There was no way this guy was going to add me as another notch on his belt.

“Look Trinity, I just wanted to be that special someone in your life. I wanted to be that guy you came to when you needed to be satisfied.”

“Bullshit! You just assumed sense I told you my last relationship was five years ago that I would fall right on the next dick that came my way.” I screamed.

“Trinity, would you listen to yourself? You’re willing to let a good thing like me pass you by?”

“Why you arrogant….” I paused catching myself before I said something I would regret. “Look, I don’t want to argue. Let’s just hang up the phone, say goodbye, and leave it at that.”

“I can’t do that you see because I know you’re the woman for me. So what if you know my schedule is crazy, and that I don’t have a lot of time for a relationship. I want to make it work.”

Here we go with this mess again. I thought. Telling me what I want to hear. Frankly, I was getting sick and tired of it.

“Darren, let it go! You want a plaything. A female you can get some ass from whenever you call. I can’t and I won’t be that woman for you!”

I leaned over to hang up my phone when he screamed out something that made the very hairs on the back of my neck stand on in.

“Trinity I promise to be the man you need in your life. Just tell me you’ll give our love a chance!”

“What love Darren? We have no love. I barely know you. Goodbye!”

I slammed the phone down on the receiver and got out of bed to get dressed. I went over to my walk-in closet and grabbed my white chiffon robe. After putting it on I went downstairs to get myself a drink of water. When I entered my kitchen I went straight to the cabinet and took out a large glass and filled it with ice cold water. As I drank my water the phone rang again.

The first thing that came to my mind was that it had to be Darren. Why couldn’t he get it through his thick skull that I was not interested in his little childish games? I tried to pay no attention to the phone, but the more I ignored it, the louder it seemed to ring.

“Ok Darren!” I screamed out loud to myself as I made my way over to answer it. “Yes!” I yelled as I picked up the phone.

“Trinity it’s me. Now before you hang up in my face, please hear me out.”

It was Darren, just as I suspected. He sounded so pathetic. I tried not to feel sorry for him, but as usual against my better judgment I let him plead his case.

“O.k. Darren let’s hear it.”

“Trinity I am coming to you now as a man, a man in love. I know we don’t know shit about each other. But I know this, I want you.” He said almost out of breath.

“Ok.” I paused to take a sip of my water. “That’s good to know.” I stated nonchalantly.

“Woman can’t you understand that I am trying to say I love you!”

 This man was getting on my last nerve. He just would not let up.

“Darren let’s just say you’re telling me the truth. How could you and I possibly make a relationship work? You and I clearly want two different things.” I said feeling a little bit tuckered out from this whole ordeal.

“Trinity you are so quick to judge men that you can’t except when a real man wants you.”

He had a point. Ever since my heart break I had never fully trusted anything a man says. But that still doesn’t mean that his intentions are good.

“Darren, this whole thing is making me feel worn out. I just can’t keep going tit for tat with you.” I placed my half empty glass of water down onto the kitchen table.

 “If you could just accept that this thing between you and I is fate you wouldn’t have to rack your brain about it.” He said with a slight sound of hope in his voice.

“Fate, I don’t believe in fate. Things happen if you allow them to.”

“Well allow me to enter your heart. Give me a chance Trinity. I won’t let you down.” Darren pleaded.

  Darren had a way with words. His charm and eloquence was working me over. I tried not to succumb to it, but he had me under his spell. The same way he did earlier at the coffee shop.

“Darren I want so badly for you to be the one for me, but I can’t accept this. It’s all too good to be true. Here you are this gorgeous man that pops up from out of nowhere, and now your claiming you’re in love with me. It’s just unreal!” I exclaimed.

“This is fate Trinity Evans. I am willing, ready and able to prove my love to you.” He said with so much optimism.

“Prove it. How are you going to prove it?” I asked anxiously.

“I am going to prove my love to you by doing what no other man would do” He said. I could tell from the tone in his voice that he was smiling.

“And what’s that?” I asked as my heart began to beat rapidly.

“I am going to be your husband.”

“Be my husband? Are you insane? I can’t marry you!”
“You can if you allow yourself to.”

“Darren… I paused for a minute. Something in my mind suddenly flipped. It was like I stepped outside of my body for a minute. I felt so weak, like I was under a spell. “I have one thing to say to that.” I paused again taking a deep breath.  “Yes, yes.  I will marry you.”

I didn’t know what the hell I was saying. It was as if I had lost my mind. My body felt numb for a minute, but it also felt insanely good at the time. It just seemed right some how. There was something about Darren that made me feel that getting married to him was not such a bad idea. Even though I put my own future out on a limb, I trusted that he would not hurt me at all.


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